Vivian Gornick

A memoirist defends her words

A response to critics who object to the use of composite characters in my writing.

Once, in Texas, at an association of engineers, I gave a reading from my memoir “Fierce Attachments.” No sooner had I finished speaking than a woman in the audience raised her hand to ask a question: “If I come to New York, can I take a walk with your Mama?” When the laughter died down I told her that, actually, she wouldn’t want to take a walk with my mother, it was the woman in the book she wanted to walk with. They were not exactly the same.

Shortly afterwards, I attended a dinner party in New York where, an hour into the evening, one of the guests (a stranger to me) blurted out in a voice filled with disappointment, “Why, you’re nothing like the woman who wrote ‘Fierce Attachments’!” At the end of the evening she cocked her head at me, and said, “Well, you’re something like her.” I understood perfectly. She had come expecting to have dinner with the narrator of the book, not with me; again, not exactly the same.

On both occasions, what was desired was the presence of two people who existed only between the pages of a book. The models for those people — me and my mother — were, in the flesh, a rough draft. On the page, we were a pair of satisfactory principals in a tale of psychological embroilment that had as its protagonist neither me nor my mother, but, rather, our “fierce attachment.” It was to this tale that the book had been devoted, and to which all had been subordinated — including me and Mama.

At the heart of the embroilment lay a single insight: that I could not leave my mother because I had become my mother. This was my bit of wisdom, the story I wanted badly to trace out. The context in which the book is set — our life in the Bronx in the 1950s, alternating with walks taken in Manhattan in the 1980s — that was the situation; the story was the flash of insight. If the book has any strength at all, it is because I remained scrupulously faithful to that story.

A memoir is a tale taken from life — that is, from actual, not imagined, occurrences — related by a first-person narrator who is undeniably the writer. Beyond these bare requirements, it has the same responsibility as the novel or the short story — to shape a piece of experience so that it moves from a tale of private interest to one with meaning for the disinterested reader. What actually happened is only raw material; what the writer makes of what happened is all that matters. As V.S. Pritchett said of the genre, “It’s all in the art, you get no credit for living.”

Some of the greatest memoirs written, if held to the standard of literal accuracy that is required in other kinds of nonfiction writing, would never pass the test. When Thomas de Quincey wrote “Confessions of an English Opium Eater” he led his readers to believe that his addiction was behind him; not true; he was taking opium when he wrote the book, and continued to take it for next 30 years. To this day, there are readers who cry “Liar!” at one of the most profound descriptions ever given of addiction. Edmund Gosse’s “Father and Son,” written when Gosse was 57 years old, recounts conversations that purportedly took place when he was 8 years old. The book, upon publication, was instantly recognized as a masterpiece, but people who had known the Gosses protested that Edmund made those conversations up — which, of course, he did. George Orwell’s brilliant short memoir of how he experienced his schooldays, “Such, Such Were the Joys,” was denounced by people who had been his classmates: filled with “inaccuracies,” they insisted. On and on it goes, until one realizes there is a vast misunderstanding abroad about how to read a memoir.

To state the case briefly: memoirs belong to the category of literature, not of journalism. It is a misunderstanding to read a memoir as though the writer owes the reader the same record of literal accuracy that is owed in newspaper reporting or in literary journalism. What the memoirist owes the reader is the ability to persuade that the narrator is trying, as honestly as possible, to get to the bottom of the experience at hand.

Two weeks ago I spoke about memoir writing at Goucher College, before a group of writing program students and their teachers. It was my intention, during this talk, to define the genre as I understand it, practice it, and teach it. I spoke for an hour out of a book on the subject that I wrote a year ago (“The Situation and the Story: The Art of Personal Narrative”), then I read from “Fierce Attachments.” I was at pains during this talk to make a definite distinction between what the writer of personal narrative does, and what the writer of biography, newspaper writing, or literary journalism does. I said many of the things I am saying here.

At a question and answer period afterwards, I took many questions that had more to do with the literal actuality of the events behind my story than with the writing itself. In the course of responding to these questions, I mentioned that on a few occasions in the book I had made a composite out of the elements of two or more incidents — none of which had been fabricated — for the purpose of moving the narrative forward. (I might also have added that I played loose with time, for the very same reasons, relating incidents that were chronologically out of order, for the sake of narrative development.) I had said these things times without number, at other talks and readings, and in nearly every class I ever taught. It never occurred to me that such practices would not be seen as entirely within the province of the memoirist. To my amazement, these words were taken as a “confession” on my part, and reported as such by a Goucher student in Salon. Based solely on her article, a Washington book critic was subsequently allowed to denounce me on NPR’s “Fresh Air” as “the latest culprit … in a series of similar revelations,” comparing me with those other “liars,” Binjamin Wilkomirski, Doris Goodwin and Jayson Blair.

The giveaway here is this trio of names. I, a memoirist who composed (composed, mind you, not invented) a narrative drawn entirely from the materials of my own experience, am being compared to a psychopath who invented a memoir of testament out of whole cloth; a historian who is accused of incorporating other people’s work into her own without attribution; and a dishonest newspaper reporter who made up interviews in the New York Times. It seems to me that these analogies are proof, if proof be needed, that memoir writing is a genre still in need of an informed readership.

The sphinx

Susan Sontag's beauty and brains made her America's most famous intellectual, but her true self is a mystery.

Susan Sontag, through less fault of her own than you might imagine, has been a national celebrity for more than 30 years. The word “celebrity” is subsuming: artist, intellectual, performer, politician — it matters little which one it is, it’s the celebrity part of an identity that carries the weight. It imprisons its bearer in such fantasy that fans and murderers alike approach as though the celebrity in question were an artifact rather than a human being. The book we have in hand is a demonstration of the process at work: a pair of biographers, who more closely resemble paparazzi than writers, fasten on a woman of intellect, driving to ground the images and impressions connected with her, leaving both the woman and the intellectual behind in their pursuit of her fame.

Reading this book I became aware that the unauthorized celebrity bio is indeed a genre and this one, I think, must be a good example of the form. The tone is professionally cool, the writing dominated by the canned sound of “intelligent summary” that emanates from the industry of untalented researchers. Sontag’s biographers are not engaged by her ideas, but they catalog them assiduously; they are not unskeptical of how she got where she is, but they admire the success; they insinuate whenever they can, yet they do not sit in judgment. The book neither sympathizes with its subject nor trashes her. A kind of semiruthless, semi-good-natured impersonality prevails throughout. In short, she is simply a timely subject for a pair of pros — one of them has already done Marilyn Monroe, Lillian Hellman and Norman Mailer — for whom pedestrian evenhandedness is a signature trait.

Sontag herself is a problematic subject for any biographer (much less one to whom she would not speak). Living as she does in a fishbowl, she long ago put in place a way of being in the world — cold, arrogant, dramatic-looking — that evolved, ultimately, into an impenetrable disguise, one that remains, finally, unrevealing. As for her writing, although she became famous as a young woman for her bold ’60s essays — the ones announcing a sea change in the culture — hers was always the voice of an educated urban intellectual, free of inflection or nuance, in rigorous possession of a traditional intelligence that could research an insight and organize the material prodigiously. But she was from the beginning, and has remained to this day, a formal — not a personal — essayist. Even when the impetus for the work is openly derived from her own experience (as in “Illness as Metaphor”), she herself is not there on the page.

This book never penetrates the glazed surface of Sontag’s appearance or the formal character of her work. It simply recapitulates the career, paying heavy attention to the time and effort both she and her publisher, Roger Straus, have put into the management of her public persona. As if this is big news, it announces her lesbianism, with no insight into what it has meant to her to love women instead of men; and it gossips about her unconventional relation to her son — an Israeli writer said, watching them together, “She’s not a mother and he’s not a son.” But however many interviews were conducted with friends and enemies alike, the reader is left knowing that a wall still stands behind which Susan Sontag lurks, undetected and unknown.

Yet a cultural study of intellectual celebrity with Sontag as its emblematic figure would be worth writing because the question of her fame is, I think, a legitimate one. Why has she been so famous for so many years? What does her name stand for in novels and movies and magazine cartoons? What is it about her that compels people like Rollyson and Paddock to proclaim her an icon and a phenomenon? If Sontag were a man would this extraordinary hyperbole be associated with her person or her work? Now there we have a question that answers itself.

Sontag’s fame is clearly linked to the fact that she is a woman, and a beautiful one at that. To a middlebrow culture, a beautiful woman who is also an intellectual is an enduring amazement, one as alive in the 20th century as it was in the 18th when Samuel Johnson said, “It’s not so much that she does it well as that she does it at all.” By which I do not mean that Sontag doesn’t do it well — she does, supremely — only that her celebrity is inextricably tied to this insufferable deeper truth. A dramatic-looking intellectual woman of her generation was destined to become a dancing dog, that is, a phenomenon, a freak, a creature adored as a magical object.

The woman writer of the previous generation who had occupied this slot — and it is a slot — was Mary McCarthy, the original “dark lady of American letters” (a term of description that has been applied to Sontag as well). McCarthy — bold, beautiful, brilliant — was, like Sontag, marked both by her brilliance and by an inexplicable sense of entitlement that compelled her to operate (from the start) with astonishing self-assurance at the typewriter and in a roomful of literary fame. It was the two together that got both McCarthy and Sontag anointed as remarkable exceptions — women whose nerve made them worthy of inordinate recognition. For each of them this special status would prove formative.

Susan Sontag has lived most of her life as the remarkable exception. What has that meant to her? What has it taught her? What did it let her see that she would not otherwise have seen? What has she made of being an exotic, a specimen? What insight has it given her into the meaning of privilege arbitrarily extended, power arbitrarily denied? It’s not too often that the remarkable exception speaks openly, with honesty and thoughtfulness. In our time, only a handful have, maybe not even that. Rebecca West, Simone de Beauvoir, who else?

De Beauvoir is an important case in point.. For more than 20 years she’d been Sartre’s intellectual companion: knew everyone, went everywhere, published prodigiously, considered herself free, equal, independent and inside. Then she set out to explain Sartre’s theory of existentialism, using herself to show how it worked, and discovered that she herself was “other.” She was not central to the action, she was there on sufferance; she was only a woman. Out of this discovery came “The Second Sex.”

I would like to see a biography of Sontag — or a memoir, for that matter — with her status as the remarkable exception at the vital center. I’d like to see that status organize the prose, form the perspective from which all else is interpreted. This, I think, is the true value of Sontag’s life: the exemplary experience, the thing that makes writing about her of interest.

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Punch drunk

Vivian Gornick reviews 'The Time of Our Time' a collection of essays by Norman Mailer

I have not read Norman Mailer in a good 25 years; nor does anyone I know read him. When he is reviewed these days it is invariably by men who write
with respectful love of the way he made them feel when they were young in
the late ’50s and early ’60s, and those electric sentences of his first hit
the air, galvanizing a famously silent generation into remembering that it
is necessary to stay alive inside one’s own skin. It was the force and
rhythm of the sentence structure; like poetry, it seemed neither
description nor analysis but the thing itself. Really, Mailer’s writing was
an astonishing prod in the age of the gray flannel suit. That is, for the
men it was a prod. For intelligent women of the ’50s (the Doris Lessings
among us), I think it must have been another matter. I don’t really know
what Mailer meant to them; I don’t think they themselves knew. But in the
’70s, women in their 20s and 30s knew what he meant, at
whose permanent expense “feeling alive” was to be had. And when we said
so, out loud and in print, Mailer turned vicious. The antifeminism was
pathological, a thing we turned away from in fear as well as rage.

Now, all these years later, I pick up this dictionary-sized retrospective
of his work like an archaeological artifact, blow off the dust of my old,
long-dead angers and sit down to hear the sound of Mailer’s voice once
more, to see if I cannot listen (beyond the words that once filled my head
with blood) for the value of what is actually being said by an influential
writer who, for so long, was emblematic of a world that said to women like
me, “Over my dead body.”

James Baldwin once wrote about having first met Mailer in Paris when both
writers were in their early 30s. He remembered with affection “the way
Norman argued. He argued like a young man, he argued to win; and while I
found him charming he may have found me exasperating, for I kept moving
back before that short, prodding forefinger.” When they met again a few
years later, at a party in New York, something “seemed different about him,
it was the belligerence of his stance, and the really rather pontifical
tone of his voice … [He] was smiling and having a ball. And yet — he was
leaning against the refrigerator, rather as though he had his back to the
wall, ready to take on all comers.” And again, there was that “thrusting
forefinger.” Clearly, the pose had hardened.

This was the early ’60s. What Baldwin couldn’t know at the time (nor
Mailer, either, for that matter), was that the belligerence would never
dissolve out — never change shape, color or texture — not once in the 40
years that lay ahead. It couldn’t because, as it turned out, Mailer was
never to know himself any better than he did at that moment. For the rest
of his life he would be standing with his back to the refrigerator taking
on all comers.

To read this book through from beginning to end is to be made sharply aware
of how compelled Norman Mailer has been by an aggression that speaks
directly to the feeling of having been left out, dismissed and discounted:
a condition common to many writers who successfully turn early grievance to
writerly effect, and a thing Mailer himself did brilliantly and repeatedly
in his prime. He became his own metaphor. His grievance was the grievance
of the country. To talk about himself — what it felt like to be thwarted,
stifled, taken down, prevented from living openly, and with
intensity — was to talk, in the ’50s and ’60s, about the inner
death of middle-class America.

From “Boxing with Hemingway” (the first piece in the book) on, Mailer’s
nonfiction is remarkable for the use to which he openly — years before
the confessionalism of popular culture had taken hold — puts this habit of
exposing himself in all his weakness and all his anxiety. Having adopted
the distancing device of speaking of himself in the third person (a trick
seen at the time of writing as a piece of shameless egoism), he freely,
happily, repeatedly confessed to envy, greed, insecurity, raging
competitiveness. What is curious is how little affect his confessionalism
achieves. “Himself” is nothing he confesses to. Himself is the driving
quality of the prose. It’s the rhetoric that is the compulsive confessor,
the finger pointer come alive in the jabbing, prodding, taunting feel –
not the substance, the feel — of the sentences. The way those
sentences are accumulating, that is Mailer’s self on the page, and
the aggression in them never lets up. It contains all his intelligence, all
his bravado, all his shrewdness and insight. Literally: contains it.
It — the aggression — is never changed by the subject, never
influenced, never deflected. It does the changing.

This glittering, pugnacious insistence through a rhetoric that knows no
bounds, being written in a period of restraint and repressiveness, about
the need to live openly, and with intensity — this was all
put in place in 1959 when Mailer wrote “The White Negro,” his now-famous
manifesto of the existential heroism of orgasmic black violence. It is an
astonishing piece, marked as it is by the clotted sentences, the headlong
drive, the sheer inability to stop. Mailer is so in love here with
the need to “arrive” that he goes on arriving until he exhausts both
himself and the reader. Repeatedly, the power of his own insight is swamped
by his own overkill. Nothing he ever wrote after “The White Negro” went any
further or deeper, or took us to a different place, or failed to exhaust
us. But some strange and wonderful things came out of this driving hunger
of his:

There is the piece on the Democratic convention of 1960. Everyone went into
that convention convinced that Kennedy would be given the nomination — and
indeed he was. Yet the hall erupted in the most amazing wave of welcome
when Adlai Stevenson mounted the podium. The clapping went on and on,
threatening never to stop. Mailer makes the moment thrilling. He describes
it with an eloquence that comes directly out of his poetic intelligence. He
understands the longing behind the applause.

Then there is the speech at Berkeley on Vietnam Day: “One must speak of
alienation, that intellectual category which would take you through
many a turn of the mind in its attempt to explain the particular corrosive
sensations many of us feel in the chest and the gut so much of the time,
that sense of the body growing empty within, of the psyche pierced by a
wound whose dimensions keep opening, that unendurable conviction that one
is hollow, displaced, without a single identity at one’s center.” That is
his remarkable opening sentence. What follows is a strong, moving
presentation of America in mid-Vietnam war (“The country is in disease …”).

And, of course, there is the problematic but ultimately magnificent “Armies
of the Night”: pathologic and this time transcendent. Here, in this famous
account of the 1967 Pentagon march, we see clearly that the professional
self-exposure that came to characterize all his nonfiction is Mailer
replacing the corporate redneck voice of his fiction with “himself” — and
here the replacement does mount up into something extraordinary, as
so often it does not. Yet, throughout the piece, we also see clearly the
continual rise and fall of his self-command as a man, and as a writer.

The night before the march there’s a party and an indoor rally at the
Ambassador Theater in Washington. At the party Mailer consumes a huge
amount of alcohol, and then before he’s to go onstage he has to urinate. By
now, he’s drunk, can’t find the light switch in the bathroom and misses
the bowl. He describes this hilariously, observing that in the morning the
theater owners will blame the piss on the floor on the communists. Once
onstage — now really drunk — he begins to bomb and starts to tell the
story about missing the bowl, going on and on until people start yelling at
him from the audience. This drives him to further excess. He begins to
curse (as no other speaker has), and is bewildered when the audience roars
its displeasure. Puzzled, he tells the reader that he loved talking
obscenely: “It gave a heartiness like the blood of beef tea to his
associations. There was no villainy in obscenity for him, just –
paradoxically, characteristically — his love for America. He had first
come to love America when he served in the U.S. Army, not the America of
course of the flag, the patriotic unendurable fix of the television
programs, and the newspapers, no … he had come to love what editorial
writers were fond of calling the democratic principle, with its faith in
the common man. He found that principle and that man in the Army, but what
none of the editorial writers ever mentioned was that the noble common man
was as obscene as an old goat, and his obscenity was what saved him … The
sanity … was in his humor; his humor was in his obscenity.”

True, but as the years went on, the obscenity in Mailer’s writing became an
unbroken rush of language that grew increasingly more vicious, and when it
did it lost its American-ness, as well as its humor. This was the poison
of a writer growing old with his private grievance intact, projecting it
onto the idiom of his time and place and calling it cultural identity. That
same poison is there in the work of writers like V.S. Naipaul and Martin
Amis
and Gore Vidal — and in them, too, it fails. The “idiom” is neither
English nor Anglo-Indian nor upper-class American; it is simply that of an
anger, there from the cradle, that precedes culture and almost always
sense of things well into middle age. It wasn’t life he was at war with; it
was writing; it was himself. And this made the reader his antagonist. “He
did not have a notion of what he would say next,” he tells us somewhere in
“Armies of the Night,” “but it never occurred to him that something would
not come. His impatience, his sorrow, his jealousy were gone, he just
wanted to live on the edge of that rhetorical sword he would soon try to
run through the heart of the audience.”

In 1971 Mailer faced Gore Vidal on television in a now famous session of
“The Dick Cavett Show.” He had already written his antifeminist tract
“Prisoner of Sex” and Vidal, in his own nasty way, had taken him
down in the pages of the New York Review of Books. So before he ever walked onto the
set Mailer was feeling humiliated. In the waiting room backstage he decides how he will handle his bad feeling: “Mailer — like that general he
could never become — was contemplating the military chances for entering
an ambush of such delicacy connected to such strength. The only answer was
attack. Shatter all prepared positions. Go out, he said to himself, and
smash that fucking tea house.” And he did. He came out battling, made a
shambles of the program, and along with it the most monumental and
horrifying fool of himself. He was nearly 50 years old, and he’d been doing
this for more than 20 years: still standing with his back to the
refrigerator, taking on all comers.

Two other writers working around the same time as Mailer also developed
voices that originated in murderous truth speaking — George Orwell and
James Baldwin. Each of them labored long and hard to make anger serve
thought. Orwell did it most successfully, and we remember almost everything
he said. Baldwin produced a powerful rhetoric that also served, and we will
respond to much of his writing as long as American literature lasts. To be
now in the presence of Mailer’s voice speaking throughout 1200 pages of
writing that span 50 years, is to be overwhelmingly aware not only of its
unchanged sound, but that one hardly remembers anything it actually says,
only that it is determined to drive its rhetoric into our hearts. This is a
startling conclusion. Startling and depressing.

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